We’ve all had the experience of meeting someone who remembers us, but we don’t remember them. At least, I know that I have. As a priest you are continually meeting new people... constantly. It takes a bit getting used to. Even if you met them for one minute two years ago, they’ll say, “Remember me?” Ummm...no. At least that’s what you want to say, but out of some uncomfortable congeniality, you do the next best thing--you lie. You say something like this, “O sure, its good to see you again.” I’ve learned that saying ‘good to see you’ is a relatively neutral response that allows you to avoid implicating yourself for not remembering that person. But we all do it. We entertain conversations awkwardly with someone and it reaches the point where we can’t possibly admit that we don’t know them. Suddenly trapped, we look for a polite escape out of the conversation that really isn’t a conversation in its purest form.
Unfortunately for many of us, this may actually be where we are with the Lord Jesus Christ. We entertain a conversation with him, but our eyes are furiously looking for an exit; a way out. We are uncomfortable with Him--the One who knows us intimately. We, however, don’t really remember Him, we don’t know Him, we don’t truly love Him. Knowing who Christ is makes all the difference. Jesus said to them, “But who do you say that I am?” Peter got it right...for once, he gets it right. “The Christ of God.” Peter knows who he is talking to! He has not yet forgotten and denied the One who had accepted him. Do we know who we are talking with? Are we entertaining a conversation with Jesus or are we truly entering into a dialogue with Him--the Son of God.
Jesus accepted Peter’s profession of faith, which acknowledged him to be the Messiah, by announcing the imminent Passion of the Son of Man. He unveiled the authentic content of his messianic kingship both in the transcendent identity of the Son of Man “who came down from heaven,” and in his redemptive mission as the suffering Servant: “The Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.” Hence the true meaning of his kingship is revealed only when he is raised high on the cross. (CCC 440)
I must reiterate this point--the fact that you are here serving Christ as summer staff, the fact that I’m a priest and serving Christ in Holy Orders is not a guarantee of truly knowing who it is that we are talking to! We must admit to ourselves that the abiding love with which Jesus extends to us through his passion, death and resurrection is a reality we can very easy disassociate ourselves with through sin. It can be precarious. There can be a blindness within our own souls that is inhibiting us from knowing Jesus Christ. What are these roadblocks that disguise the identity of Christ within our lives? We’ve domesticated Jesus, we’ve defined who is according to our own musings and we’ve excused ourselves from suffering.
In Father Robert Barron’s series, The Catholicism Project, he begins the ten part DVD with the question of who Jesus is. This is the premise of everything for us in faith. Who in fact is this person of Jesus Christ? Jesus in Hebrew means, “God Saves.” Christ is the Greek derivative of the Hebrew, Messiah which means, “anointed.” This means that Jesus is the one consecrated by God to fulfill the mission of salvation; to save humanity from their sins. He is the priest, the prophet and the king fulfilling all of what the Israelites we patiently expecting. How he went about it was drastically different, however. He is lifted high on the cross suffering the death of a criminal to atone for our sins. Barron goes on to articulate that when someone met Jesus, they were amazed and afraid. There is something arresting about Jesus’ presence. It commands not just a respect, but an awe and majesty that dices through our complacent and apathetic hearts. To know Christ is to be in awe of his majesty and glory. It is to be amazed and afraid of his presence that makes us uncomfortable and shocks us out of our stupor. Meeting Jesus and knowing him is not entertaining a conversation at a reception of cordial and superficial conversation. If silence and solitude are intimidating to us it is because we want to keep this challenging conversation of Christ at bay. We want to remain an arm length apart. We are uncomfortable with the love of Him coming too close to our woundedness. But as Isaiah says, “It is by his wounds that we are healed.”
After leaving the solitude of prayer, Jesus asks his disciples, “Who do the crowds say that I am?” The disciples then go on to say a litany of who He isn’t! They reply, “John the Baptist, Elijah, an ancient prophet that has arisen.” Interesting that they begin defining Jesus by what he is not. Appropriate as well because that is the Catholic approach to knowing God. Defining what He is not! And boy have we had enough of this! Jesus is not a guru. Jesus is not a self-help book. Jesus is not a tacky youtube song, a quaint friend of mine! Jesus is not an 8lb 6oz baby Jesus. Jesus is not just a prophet among other prophets. He isn’t in the categories of what the History channel would like to relegate him to. He isn’t a pocket sized Jesus who we from to be into who we think he should be to fit our lifestyles.
The via negativa is the systematic theology of the Church that attempts to describe God by negation. St. Thomas Aquinas used this approach to help us better understand God by knowing what he is not. It makes all the difference for us as Catholics because it helps us not fall into the trap of making God into something that fits our mold and our perceptions. The Gospel reading first helps us understand what God is not. Then Peter in an epiphany of faith exclaims, “You are the Christ of God!” You are the anointed one sent by God to save us from our sinfulness. We must be careful not to project ourselves into our conception of who God is. He is otherly other, not confined to our opinions, but an objective truth. He is the one and the only one to save humanity from our sinful and inerrant ways. There is no other who can make this truth claim. Jesus is the son of God who suffered, died and rose for the salvation of man.
Right after the truth claim of Peter, Jesus rebuked them. Immediately after the claim of Christ’s Messianic mission by Peter, Jesus points toward the meaning of His presence in our lives. He says, “The Son of Man must suffer greatly and be rejected by the elders, the chief priests, and the scribes, and be killed and on the third day be raised.” He goes on, “If anyone wishes to come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.” This is where we get tripped up all the time in identify Jesus in our daily lives. As soon as the implication of being a follower of Christ becomes too real, we shy away. We bolt, we run, we hid. We say, “NO WAY!” Saint Paul says, “You are all children of God in Jesus Christ. For all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ.” Do we really understand what St. Paul is saying? He is telling us that identification of Christ, a real relationship with him, an authentic on-going conversation with Him means a participation within the life of Him. This means that what Jesus says will happen to Him will happen to us. Me no like this. “If you wish to save your life, you will lose it, but if you lose it, you will save it.” Get lost! Subsume your life into his! Hold fast to the conversation of Christ even if it implicates you into this suffering servants melody of salvation. Embrace it, do not run from it. This is the only way we can truly get to know the Jesus who is personal.
The Lord says to the inhabitants of Saint Josephs and Jerusalem, “I will pour out a spirit of grace and petition and they shall look on him whom they have pierced.” Realizing that our lives are parched, lifeless and without water we can make the decision to allow our souls to cling fast to you, Jesus. With exaltant lips my mouth shall praise you. I will get to you know you these next days of silence and solitude. I will enter into your pentecost. I am amazed and afraid of you, Jesus because I know who you truly are. I know that you are not what I make you out to be sometimes. I will not run from the cross, but embrace it as you did. I will remember what you did for me and continue to do for me; that your love is so powerful that it put to death my sin and gave me life in you. Amen.